i have mixed emotions about my sexual experience with my ex bf, he was my first and i’v never been with another guy, i still love, love him more than anything and miss him a lot, when ever i do miss him, i feel like the sex was the best thing, all the stff we did! And when i remeber the pain he put me through, the emotional abuse, i hate him, i feel disgusted in myself, feel cheap coz he broke up with me after the sex! I feel like i gave up my virginty to a kak guy!!! Yet i still love hm so da point i wish i had tried harder to keep him!! will sleeping with another guy help me forget about him.