I’ve been with my boyfriend 2 years and we’ve done almost everything when it comes to sex except one thing…anal. He never wants to do it an will never do it no matter how bad i ask an Iv always wanted to try it an its started to really piss me off. It was christmas 2012 an we were at his familys house for dinner an after we had done the presents an eaten and everything people started to leave but me an my boyfriend we’re gona stay the night because we were both way to drunk to drive. Everyone had gone to bed except ME my boy my boyfriends brother so it was just us 3 drinking under the heater on the deck. Anyway I was pretty tipsy at this point an we we’re talkin about all kinds of things an I cant remember how it came out but I told his brother that he wouldn’t have anal with me! His brother was calling him a pussy and laughing an stuff an my boyfriend just kept saying “i dont wana its not cool” and so I said how about as my christmas present we have anal tonight and his brother was like “camon just fucking do it mate!” he still said no and so i said that a banana would be a better boyfriend because at least I could put that in my ass. Which was probably a little bit mean but it was hilarious and his brother was almost in tears with laughed coz it was pretty funny…anyway he got so pissed off that he stormed out and drove home drunk. We we’re both laughing still and I was now actually stuck at his familys house with his brother because we we’re both too drunk and getting a cab on christmas is harder than getting anal from my boy. Anyyyyway! We we’re both still their laughing about the banana joke and after it got really late and we we’re both still out on the deck drinking and chatting, he got so drunk he made a comment about how he can’t beleive his brother wouldn’t give me anal because im so hot…10 minutes later we we’re in the hammock on the deck and he was fucking me hard. After a few minutes in my pussy I finallly got anal and it was amazing…at the time I was really drunk an I can’t remember much of it but I remember being really angry at my boyfriend for leaving me their, being really horny their by myself and having his brother make a move on me…it was a recipe for disaster and afterwards obviously I feel guilty as fuck. But I still never told my boyfriend and no one knows about it…but I dont know what to do…because 1. I feel really bad. 2. I feel really GUILTY 3. he STILL wont give me the sex I want. 4. His brother still texts me saying I deserve better and he want to see me again but I feel too bad and too guilty to text back even though Im so bored with my boyfriend and Im falling for his brother…What do I do? Worst Situation…I know I fucked up and shouldn’t of done what I did but sometimes a girl needs to be given what she wants from her partner and if they dont provide its instinct to go elsewhere….Obviously I fucked up but WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO? If someone is smart enough to answer this then please do!