I don't want to give up!!!


First I would like to apoligize for the long paragraph that you are hopefully reading and helping me with.

My situation is that I met this woman and she is amazing. I know a lot of people always say that but in my case I feel like she is the one. That feeling that you know that is just absolutely, to the utmost, amazing feeling when with that special someone. I’ve known her for about a week and a half but the things that happen between us is just phenominal; something that you can’t explain. One night we go to a bonfire party and we end up making out; go back to my place and continue for the entire night. Then the next day she goes home to take care of a couple things and wants to meet me later that night for another party, everything seemed perfectly normal when she left and I did not have any feeling that she was second guessing about us. Here’s the twist, she texts me telling me “I’m sorry but I won’t be able to make it tonite, I need time to thing over some things.” No problem, I tell her. Then out of nowhere she pretty much tells me she doesn’t want to hurt my feeling and don’t want to get extremely involved until she figures out what to do with her ex-boyfriend. She says she still has feeling for him but is not sure and she tells me she still wants to keep in touch, ya know, like not just blow me off. In my opinion, there is a reason why he is her “ex” boyfriend and im not saying totally forget about him and I can get past the fact she did not tell me about this before we made out but it doesn’t make sense. I’ve already told her she doesn’t need someone like him and deserves better, that she has made me extremely upset and I’m going crazy and can’t stop thinking about her. I can’t sleep, I can’t think, hell, going out for a jog didn’t even help one bit. I need help, what am I supposed to do at this point?! Should I give her a couple day to figure things out then like slowly start to talk to her again? like “hey how are you doing? was just thinking about you”. I don’t want to give up because this is the first time I’ve actually felt happy in my life.

Someone please help!