I am gay scared to come out the closet

yes I am gay and yes I’m a pussy “come out the closet” I confess, its not that easy, I would be disowned and my fees would not be paid and obviously NSFAS won’t help out, I wish I could talk to some1 about this but affraid if I do I’d get to a point where I accept and come out and becme a no-one, but fuck the judgemental ass wholes and even if you think you know me I don’t care anymore